...a book I shall be one day

and one day shall I be a book! I shall write on these pages my past, my present my future...but for now, this is my story  The wife of a convicted Sex Offender.  A man convicted of crimes that some only think punishable by death. A man who would take his own life before ever thinking about emotionally destroying another human being again. Hard to believe this is a selfless, careing, kind, human being. Capable of so much compassion and love. What could be missing that would cause a man like this to sexually abuse a child?  Perhaps finding a reflection of himself in his victims...tortured and abused as a child. Finding comfort in inappropriate places. There was no violence in his crimes. No mayhem or cruelty...Just a lacking of ...something. The emotion most of us have naturally that says "No", this is wrong---I cant make this person feel this way. EMPATHY. My husband has found empathy. It gave him back many things. The ability to remember and face his crimes To see the damage he caused his victims.To take full responsibility for his actions. The collateral damage to their family and friends---to HIS family and friends The courage to face his past and to realize that adults shouldn't touch children the way he was touched and later, the way he touched them. Understanding EMPATHY gave him back the ability to see others and not just himself. To free himself of the narcissistic prison he used to protect himself from being hurt by anymore. He was able to find true love in our marriage. With my unconditional love and having had his secrets forcefully released, he started down the path of learning EMPATHY, and mastered it. There are no sureties in this world. Neither of us will say NEVER AGAIN. But through a 12 year remision from substance abuse and this learning of self, my husband is no longer a sex offender. He is a former sex offender. Some say a marriage has to have unconditional trust to be blissful; I say that conditional trust is perfection. We are soulmates and lovers, but never fools. Loving him through this life and into the next...I am NOW, THEN, FOREVER his.